Penitence

by Catholic Guilt

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The first three "confessions" from Catholic Guilt.
Penitence was recorded over two days at The Basin studio with Noah Esposito and Matt D'arcy

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released December 19, 2016

Bryce Novotny (Guitars/Backing vocals) - "Disconnect", "Sad States", (Guitars/Vocals) - "Capo on Four"
Brenton Harris (Vocals) - "Disconnect", "Sad States"
Ryleigh Novotny - (Vocals) - "Disconnect" (Backing Vocals) - "Sad States"
Ty Noble - (Drums) - "Sad States"

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Track Name: Disconnect
I feel a disconnect, deep within my soul,
Because I can’t connect, with what should matter most
I feel such strange contempt, for everything I love,
Because I just can’t be content, enough is never enough.

And the dreams that I’ve always had,
Have never felt so clear, but they’ve also never felt,
As far away as they do here,
And I know I should be thankful for the blessed life I lead,
But at times I get so restless that I can barely breathe.

I feel a disconnect, deep within my soul,
Because I can’t connect, with what should matter most,
I feel such strange contempt for everything I love,
For I just can’t be content, enough is never enough

Maybe it’s my catholic guilt, or perhaps it’s anxiety,
But no matter how hard I try, I can’t just let things be
So I live my life in a constant state of half happiness,
For to me contentedness,
Seems a step away from being dead

I feel a disconnect, deep within my soul,
Because I can’t connect, with what should matter most,
I feel such strange contempt for everything I love,
For I just can’t be content, enough is never enough

I’ve always been afraid of silence, I’m not sure what that means,
Something about the nothingness, tears and scares the hell out of me
I can’t sleep without the distant hum of the cities lullaby,
Or the pound of another heartbeat resting gently by my side,

My mother said I’ve always been like this,
Since I was a newborn in a bassinet,
I don’t what that means,
All I know is that I’m afraid to find out.

I feel a disconnect, deep within my soul,
Because I can’t connect, with what should matter most,
I feel such strange contempt for everything I love,
For I just can’t be content, enough is never enough
Track Name: Sad States
I’ve been having trouble sleeping of late,
So I often spend the small hours,
Hopped up on a deadly cocktail,
Of thoughts of reinvention
And merciless self-doubt

A conflicting state that flies in the face
Of my belief in P.M.A
And that in context, I’m in a good place

And when it gets too hard I walk outside by the ocean,
There’s something about that setting that’s always made me feel centered,
There I write these songs as a coping mechanism,
As I stare into space and dream of adventures

It’s all such a sad state of affairs,
but I really do care, a little too much for some tastes,
So I overcompensate
With intense self-depreciation and humorous observations;
It’s a trick that I learned, growing up in the suburbs

And when it gets too hard I walk outside by the ocean,
There’s something about that setting that’s always made me feel centered,
There I write these songs as a coping mechanism,
As I stare into space and dream of adventures

Because I played by the rules,
Only to discover that the winners were playing,
a different game this whole time
So I hang it on my wall, a certificate I display with pride
So if anyone asks how I got here, at least I can say I tried….

And when it gets too hard I walk outside by the ocean,
There’s something about that setting that’s always made me feel centered,
There I write these songs as a coping mechanism,
As I stare into space and dream of adventures


And sometimes I wish that I could touch the sunset,
Put it in my pocket, and take it home,
But no matter how far I reach it evades me,
A reminder that something’s were never meant to be owned
Track Name: Capo on Four
No matter how much I think about you,
I'll never have you by my side,
You're the one I loved, you're the one who left me,
because you said "I never tried"

If I tried harder, everyday,
then I guess you would've stayed,
but I guess you can't, so I guess you wont,
I hope I stop missing you one day

I want to say this to your face,
but I know that'll never have the guts,
A thousand things that come to mind,
but your face, always interrupts

I can't say how much I hate you,
because the way that you left me was kinda fucked,
but I'm still writing songs about you,
because my mind is always stuck

Of the thought of maybe calling you,
after everything that we've been through,
I'm just trying, trying to forget,
I can't do it yet

No matter how much I think about you,
I'll never have you by my side,
You're the one I loved, you're the one who left me,
because you said "I never tried"

If I tried harder, everyday,
then I guess you would've stayed,
but I guess you can't, so I guess you wont,
I hope I stop missing you one day